lately...

hello my dear damn fucking readers..

lately i felt down..

i don't know why...

maybe because i messed up someone relationship but i already back off.

i know how it felt when your relationship in stake because of there was someone else..

so now i lay low..

but when i lay low, i missed the old me.

ME when i am relationship.

i know, there someone better for me.

i just need to keep WAITING. *kan awak kan* =P

ok, enough about that.

i also sad about something that i just found out.

i felt i've been betrayed.

i trust her!

and i cant believe when i read her blog, that is how she REALLY felt about me.

when she's with me, the way she treat me, talk to me..DAMN she really know how to act..hey you, you should win the best actress laa..

last week, i was blogwalking, then i open her blog.

then i read her latest entry said 'I WIN'

i read and read and read..

i cried....

damn she is a bitch.

i'm sorry but you are a bitch.

i trust you!!

i mean, I REALLY TRUST you!!

i back you up when needed, i always be by your side when you need someone..

what do you want me to do to satisfied to your level?

you said i am the one who culture shock?

HELLO, LOOK AT YOUR LIFE NOW?

is that the life u really want?

HELL NO RIGHT?

hahaha..

even though my life have been so mess up but i still can get up and fight back to the life that i want..

but you?

did you do anything to your life?

you said you SOOO INDEPENDENT but you dont even know how to use lrt..duhhh~

i never mess my life so badly like your life.

so, think again who the one HAVING a FUCK UP life right now.

you should grateful everyone still love you.

ya allah, bukakan la hati hambamu ini..

okey, that's all for now..

i feel much better now..=)

just like my friend told me, just be the way i am, only almighty HIM can judge me. not YOU!

besides that, i am just HAPPY GO LUCKY girl, so xde mse nak layan2 org camtu..lantak ko la. nak kutuk aku ke, nak buat citer pasal aku ke, my friends know the best ME.

the most important things, JUST KEEP ON SMILING. =) 

because smile is the best medicine to your heart and you will grow much stronger than you know.

to be continue.........

mental note to myself--------> JUST KEEP ON SMILING, DONT LET ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN GIRL!! CHEER UP! sad is sooo not in your life dictionary. =)